I think I haven't given myself the freedom to dream and desire something wonderful for my life. Stuck in a place of fear. I tend to suppress things I desire, instead of keeping them in my heart even as I try to enjoy the life I have now.
Let's say I have always wanted to go to Paris. I shouldn't have to shut the dream and desire away even if I think I can't afford it. I should be able to say, "one day", even if I know not when or if ever it will come to pass.
And so I feel like my life is dull and boring (and when I think about it, really is) because I don't dream. How can I stop suppressing my desires.
The fear of angering or disappointing God; of not being in His will. These are some factors that play into how I feel. I should be able to say (boldly), Lord this is what I would like. It's up to Him to say yes or no. But I should be bold enough to ask. But desire, desire, desire and expressing those desires is something I don't do.
I don't dream. Lord help me get unstuck.
Update:- I've been thinking that I shouldn't really say my life is boring. I have a lot of good things going on. I have a lot to be grateful for. I just think I've stopped expecting good things to come into my life. God wants to be good to us all you know. But He does expect us to be expecting it. So with that said, I don't have a boring life, I just need to become bolder in the desires and expectations I have for my life, of what God can do through me and for me ;)
