Saturday, October 11, 2014

Getting Unstuck

I think the process of getting unstuck has begun for me. I've moved to a new apartment and I'm so grateful and excited. 

My husband and I had been living in an old Japanese house. Yes, I can say that I've lived in a Japanese house! Through a very good Japanese friend of ours, who sadly is now deceased, we were able to meet the lady who was to become our friend and landlord. 

Throughout our time living in the house, however, I've seen some of the most hideous insects ever! I don't know how I managed for so long but it got to the point where I was terrified to be alone at home. 

And you know what's strange, I was afraid to move. When I decided that I was going to love myself enough to move away from something that was making me so uncomfortable, I was scared. 

Change and the unknown become scary when we've become so comfortable where we are. 

I wondered how we'd commute, I thought about the extra rent we'd have to pay (our rent was really, really cheap!), I thought about how our living space would be smaller and so on. 

But you know, now that we've moved, I look back at the experience and I'm able to see how we can get stuck in life. And we usually end up in a place where we stop growing because we get accustomed to our everyday routine. We fear interrupting this routine. We want to try something else, but we are afraid of the new things that'll be required. 

But guess what! Don't be afraid! Or better yet, go and do it afraid! Change is good and can help to refresh us. I am glad that I went ahead and did what I had to do although I was so scared. Even when I was supposed to make payment, I almost didn't. I stood outside the bank for a few minutes, afraid to go in. And even after all was said and done, I still felt afraid. Being inside our new place however, makes me so pleased. Everything is new and fresh.

Can you think of a change you can make in your life? A little something (or big one) to get you unstuck? I'm happy with the decision I've taken to make a change. I'm sure you'll be blessed too. 

Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Anxiety

You never really come to understand what other people are going through until you've dealt with it yourself. 

I've had problems with anxiety for as long as I can remember. I don't know why I'm only just trying to figure out what's going on with me. My internet searches have revealed to me just how 'common' a problem it is. I'm surprised at how many people struggle with anxiety daily. 

I'm hopeful that I can be set free from it. I don't like to be dependent on medications but I realize that of I need to take them I'll just have to. I'm also trying to accept me as I am, weaknesses and all. I've got lots of strengths too! So I'll celebrate those even as I accept those things I can't control. 

Who knows what my experience with anxiety can lead to. All things ultimately work together for good.